Chickens and other pets

As an animal lover and an owner of chickens, my worst fear is waking up in the night to hear them screaming and knowing the fox is in with them. True to people who have never had chickens or who aren't animal lovers as such, it may seem a bit OTT and dramatic to fuss …

Physical PIP Assessment

So, it's been a while since my last entry because to be honest, I've been so busy!  I've had a bad few weeks, I've been away over new year, I've had all sorts happen really and now that I'm finally back home and settled, I've had about a million medical appointments already. My latest appointment …

Personal relationships

Personal relationships have never exactly been my strong suit, I tend to bulldoze good ones, avoid new ones and ignore the worst points of the bad ones.  It can be hard, especially when you’re somewhat emotionally unstable and when you tie BPD in with paranoia and anxiety, it really doesn’t help the situation. To be …

Panic attacks

Like anyone with severe anxiety, I’ve had my share of panic attacks.  Some of these happen during stressful situations, during times when I feel genuinely threatened, or they may happen when I’m cosy in my bed, for no apparent reason. People get different reactions during panic attacks, some feel shaky and sweaty, others feel tingly …

Dissociative disorder

Have you ever had times where you totally zone out?  Maybe in that class you found particularly boring or when someone was talking to you and your brain didn’t care enough to pay attention.  Well, imagine that, but imagine it happening during every class, every conversation.  Imagine living your life, constantly feeling like you’ve forgotten …

My fun with ESA and UC

Benefits are never a fun thing to try and sign up for.  First of all, it feels pretty naff having to say you can’t work anymore, especially when you’re only young and people expect you to be able to do far more than you’re capable of.  But on top of that, the entire system is …

Help with PIP forms

In my opinion, PIP forms are the most disgusting entity in the universe.  I hate them, I cannot express my hatred enough and considering this blog is supposed to help and up build people, I’m not making a very good start on this entry. But on a more serious level, PIP forms are really hard …

Breakfast at Tiffany’s

One of my favourite films, is breakfast at Tiffany's, mainly because I understood it so well.  When I was first introduced to Miss Holly Golightly, I saw myself; a woman who felt so alone, so desperately sad and yet she pretended all was fine, pretended she didn't care, she didn't have emotions, she had no …

My BPD diagnosis

To be honest, when my psychotherapist suggested a diagnosis of BPD, I was pretty confused.  I had heard a fair amount about this before, and its British counterpart, EUPD, and from what I “knew”, it certainly wasn’t me. On top of thinking she had the wrong idea, I couldn’t help feeling a little angry, not …

Living with fibromyalgia

  So, for those of you who don’t know, fibromyalgia is a painful condition that causes constant bodily pain.  It’s basically where the signals in your body are bit messed up and tell your brain that something hurts when there is actually nothing wrong with them.  There is a lot of research going into this …